When at look back at the experiences I had growing up and the journey it took to get to where I am today. I wouldn’t change anything. That seems silly because it wasn’t the best of times. However, it led me to the best of times – the place I live now.
I feel as though I am finally in the right place in life. No more looking back or seeking the approval of others. I moved up on Abraham Maslow’s Hierarchy of Need and am in a place of self-actualization.
Over the years, I have been passionate about many things and believed that I needed to make a difference with all of them. Ultimately, I would end up switching my focus and it would be a disappointment or something would happen and force my situation or circumstances to change. When I analyze the patterns in my life – it all makes sense.
Losing my babies catapulted me into a period of despair that I believed I would never overcome. Yet, I am here. I am happy and FREE. The time between that occurring and now is filled with so many experiences good and bad it is exhausting and exhilarating to think about.
At first, I felt pushed into life and then one day, I started pulling. At that point, I realized that I was passionate about living and could make choices and have desires that would ease my course in life. I would be remiss if I did not share that my faith in God and relationship with Jesus Christ had everything to do with my transition. In fact, this is what led me to understand that all I was searching for was in my hands. I just needed to be faithful with the small things and the big things in life would work out.
Somewhere during that time frame, it occurred to me that it was my purpose to help others on their journey. It’s not enough to get their yourself, but you must help someone else. I imagine that Harriet Tubman, was overjoyed about freedom from slavery, but agonized over those who were left. She had to make the trek back to help others to freedom or she was not truly free herself. This is where I found myself in thought.
So, I talk to people and encourage whomever I can when possible. I thought this meant LIfe Coaching, Ministry Work, Public Speaking, etc. Truly, it just meant to exist and continue being led until otherwise instructed by my inner spirit. That is where I am now.
No pressure. Allow God to place people on your path, be open to receive them, accept what is intended in the right moment as prescribed and it will happen.