This time is different. I don’t care how much I weigh or how much weight I have lost. I know the adipose tissue (fat) is disappearing from my body and that is all that matters. I am transforming and that is the goal. To become someone new, closer to what I was created to be, on the inside and out.
It’s funny because my mind is overactive these days as I process my old habits against my current behaviors. It is amazing how happy I am. There is peace and my inner spirit’s pleased. I can physically do more…simple things like bend down without pain and no more heavy breathing. I enjoy a good night’s sleep and consistently awake feeling fresh. I properly cut waste from my body daily and have no bowel issues. It’s because I am eating the right foods. I am more physical. My mind is set! I decided to live and not slowly die.
I walked to the store to buy my healthy food instead of jumping in the car. In fact, I love walking!
I do not plan on weighing on a scale. It will take my focus away from what matters most – my health and how I FEEL. That is my barometer. To be intentional about my focus is what is different from the past. To be present and accounted for in my self healing – not concerned with what others think. I am not longer drawn to the dark side of living by longing for those things that are not good for me.
I believe the pain of my past is finally no longer affecting me. It was excavated and given a proper burial. I am released. I see clearer without dingy filters and I hear the positives versus the negatives spoken to me. I am able to love people – even the ones others find tough to love.
My goal with blogging is to show my transformation – that is all. I am a light for someone else struggling with food addition, among many other things conquered in my life.
This time is a big deal!