Mental Illness comes in varying degrees, but addiction and the Victim Syndrome may cause the biggest hit to our self-belief.
It’s about to get REAL for me. Yes, I have been here many times – experiencing short-term success in diet and weight management. Reality dictates I have to self-reflect, be honest, and go deeper to make life-long changes – body, mind, and spirit.
My inner victim would have me point back to childhood experiences and make connections to painful, emotionally scarring moments at the dinner table. I have volumes that I could share that would validate my inner victim!
Instead, I have decided to silence my inner victim. I admit that my problem is deeper than just overeating. So here it is: If I go unchecked, I will binge eat, without purging. Why? Because it feeds my inner victim.
Until 7 days ago, I fixated on food as though it was an idol. As I have experienced this cleanse, I am gaining strength to take on my inner victim. If I don’t, once I successfully completed the 10-Day Smoothie Cleanse, I would gradually slip back to obsessing over food.
The battle is day-by-day. I know this because I have tried to take it on in the past only to lose in the end. Each fight left me more determined to give up, until now.
Check out this blog article (Source): Defeating The Inner Victim Before it Defeats Us
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Yesterday was another successful day! I have a better understanding of the affects of harmful food toxins. This is a new revelation for me. I have had years of dieting and attempting to lose excess weight, but I had no real understanding of how. I bought into so many different gimmicks and theories – not unlike thousands of others in the world. That is why the weight loss industry grosses so much revenue. Print and media advertising really functions well as a smoke screen and distraction to place your attention on beauty and the perception of those around you.
Now, I am so much more aware of what really matters – the health of my mind, body, and spirit!
On day five, I did a lot of self-reflection. I thought about my real motivation for staying on this path. My son and my husband are at the top of my list. I want to live a fruitful life for as long as I can. My son is 18 now. One day (not so soon perhaps) there will be a wedding, grandchildren, and other important family moments that I need to be present for. This really matters to me at this stage of my life. No more time to waste!
Next on the list are my students. I teach in an underserved community where poverty is the norm. As I look at the faces in my classroom, I often see expressions of pain and disappointment. It is heartbreaking to know that for some of them, their safest moments are while they are at school. My greatest contribution to their lives is educating them and speaking positive and encouraging words into their spirits. They say showing is better than telling. So, transforming my physical self is a way of modeling the possibilities of overcoming adversity.
As a person who spends a great deal of time motivating others, it is imperative that I walk this final obstacle course in my life. I am so grateful to actually see it.
According to J.J. Smith, author of the 10-Day Green Smoothie Cleanse, “Ninety-five percent of people who lose weight on a fad diet gain it back in three to five years. So, you’re changing your eating habits for life, retraining your taste buds to desire and crave healthier foods!”
Yesterday was day four. It occurred to me today that I was able to make dinner for my family and not crave any of it! It wasn’t a fancy fare. I made hamburgers in the oven – my mother was visiting and said they were delicious. If she compliments anything it’s golden! When she said that, I realized that it never crossed my mind to have any. Instead, I ate roasted vegetables. They were cooked just right and the flavor was amazing.
Right now, steak and gravy is slow cooking in the oven and I am not craving it at all – even while smelling it. Why? Because I am not on a diet and I am changing my eating habits for life. Fourth day of the cleanse and I no longer desired sugar or fat. In fact, hamburgers seem a little gross to me at this point.
I feel liberated!
Well, it is no secret that I decided to start a smoothie cleanse two days before Christmas!
Yes, I realized what I was doing. Not only that, but felt quite assured that it was one of the coolest things ever. You see, I realize that you can not keep doing the same things and expecting different results (not an original statement). That is the definition of insanity. A 10-day smoothie cleanse would typically be something I put off until after Christmas and even the New Year! Why? Who in their right mind would start a diet or change their eating habits during the holiday season? Me.
Today (day 4), I am feeling so victorious! I did it! I survived without one hiccup. Nothing tastes as good as how I feel at this moment. I am free, happy, clear in my thinking, excited about my year to come and how my body will be transformed.
I have no regrets and my Christmas celebration was just as awesome. I believe my friends and family respect my decision. They were a little disappointed that I did not contribute my usual fat laden, greasy, GOOD tasting food to the celebration. But, oh well…
When I survived day one I believed the next nine days would be easy. Well, at least doable. So, when my body started to react to the drastic menu change, I was seriously pondering the whole 10-day thing.
The day started great, but someone I got off track and did not follow the plan to the letter. Perhaps it was my preparing for Christmas Day (more about that later), or it was because I was too excited about my new Magic Bullet that I ordered on Amazon dot com. I intended to order the Nutri-bullet but somehow ordered the wrong thing. Nonetheless, I was excited to use it and will eventually get a better juicer – I am sure.
I could feel my body changing already. I was also battling the worse headache ever it seemed! All to be expected!
To get some exercise, I walked to Walmart (not that far) instead of driving. That was cool, but my body let me know it wasn’t ready for that by the way I felt the remainder of the day. I bought a new lunch bag at Walmart – one that is big enough to pack my smoothies and veggie snacks for the day. I know that if you fail to plan, you plan to fail; therefore, I am all about the planning.
My challenge of the day was drinking the water. I had such a tough time with this. I know I can use fresh fruit and even a Stevia packet if necessary, but I want to adjust to plain water and get use to it.
Two days down, and eight to go!