Relieved…

As my mother’s only offspring, I am relieved that she decided to let go of many of her coveted possessions that became a burden to maintain as she aged.  

In the past week, I have thought many times of what it would feel like if I were sifting and sorting through her things under different circumstances.  

Mom has moved to a cozy apartment that’s perfect for her.  She is happy and resting well.  The house had become too much! She shocked me by being so willing to make this change.  She furnished her apartment and walked away from the rest. 

Just dreaming…?

A few nights ago I had some amazing Chinese food. I had been craving it for a while.  My fortune cookie stated, “A dream is just a dream.”  For a moment I was taken aback.  It was an odd statement for a fortune cookie in my opinion.  Was that supposed to be profound?  Then, I realized how true that statement really is.

A dream IS just a dream – unless you work to make it a reality.

Success…

Yesterday was the first day of my LAST semester in the teaching internship!  

When I finished work, I was so happy and eager to get started reading week one’s course materials.  By the time I got home and sat down, I fell asleep.  At seven minutes to midnight, I woke up feeling famished.  I ate a bowl of soup and began the much anticipated reading.  

I’ve been exhausted over the last few days.  My mother is downsizing her digs.  Finally, she is releasing years of material possessions so she can feel unburdened and peaceful.  Hallelujah!!!  Of course, yours truly (her only adult child) is responsible for facilitating the process.  She is safely tucked away in her new apartment and I have A LOT of everything to deal with.  So next Saturday in Chandler, AZ there will be an estate sale.  

My roles: wife, mother, daughter, student, teacher, sister, friend, and acquaintance of many – is about to get REAL!  How will I maintain? I’m not sure, but I always get the jobs done.  

I use to look at the lives of others whom I considered successful and admired them for it.  Now, I know what it takes to make it happen.  There is so much more to the achievement of SUCCESS than most realize.  What we see often has a tremendous story buried beneath it.  That is what I’ve come to truly admire.

Lately…

I have been overwhelmed and a bit afraid by all that is happening in our country and in the world politically.  I don’t want to engage in the conversations anymore.  It’s tough to be “right” without condemning someone else to being “wrong”.  I don’t care about being either.  I just want to live and inspire others to do the same.  

I have missed blogging and the community I’ve become a part of.  I now choose to put it in perspective and move forward in my own truth.  I won’t succumb to societal pressures.  I won’t allow my spirit to be dampened.  I need my energy and positivity for my students.  Everyday I must bring the best I have to the classroom in order to impart engaging and worthwhile lessons. 

Today, my focus is truth, gentleness, and fearlessness.

Purposefully at Peace

Today, I realized that I have finally arrived at my destination.  For years, I have encouraged others to pursue their dreams, overcome obstacles, and transform their lives by being intentional.  If we teach best what we need to learn – they I have a PhD in that subject matter.

For years, I was miserable on my own path.

As I look back over my life, I recall having great JOBS, yet always feeling empty.  As a result, often I would start a side job or entreprenuerial venture to appease myself.  That did not work because it only stretched me thinner at the end of the day.

Since my last blog post – Intro to my authentic self…, I have been busy decluttering my life (physically and emotionally).  I had to make some tough decisions, and shed some people, places, and things.  I took a break from blogging to make sure that I was focused and paying attention to my life and what I was manifesting on a daily basis.

As I decluttered my living space, I kept finding old business cards.  This reminded me of all those times, I was in search of the right career or usefulness in life.  While I am rich in experience (the positive side of my journey), more importantly I am purposefully at peace with where I am today as an educator.

There is no dread of going to work, no concern about finances (everybody likes more money, but it should not be the thing that drives you in my opinion).  Teaching is truly what I was purposed to do.

Now, I can relax and get on with being my personal best this academic year as a middle school teacher.

Whew! No more pressure!