A2Z2016 – “Relax, you will get there…” How my day began.

A to Z Challenge (2016), Motivation, Time

Really?!  Really?! Interstate 10 (the main artery for me to get to work) is CLOSED!

Normally, it takes me 35 minutes to get to work.  This morning it took me 1 hour and 40 minutes – not an exaggeration! 

So many cars going nowhere. Inching, inching, inching along – people’s minds preoccupied with the fact they are going to be late.  People are texting  and talking on their cell phones all around me.  My phone is ringing – my co-workers are also stuck in traffic.  This is not a natural disaster; but why does it feel like one?  

Just  .4 miles before I make that left turn, according to my Google Map voice.  It seems like a long way to go when you’re moving so slow. I will get there – it just requires patience.   This is when I tell myself, “Relax, you will get there.”  

People are turning off,  making U-turns, and going in different directions while changing their minds or perhaps losing losing their minds.  You can see the desperation in their faces. 

So, I stayed the course.  I’ve made the necessary phone calls  and notified the right people. I am not the only one in this predicament; therefore, I relaxed so I would be safe and sure to get there.

I made it…

¬†4/18/16 – Dinner Brain Break Musings…

Education, Family, Goal Setting, Mind, Motivation, Time

My son’s high school graduation cap and gown arrived today. 

It just got real.

Need pictures and invitations – deadline fast approaching!

I’m not sure how to feel.

He’s getting older – I’m getting older.
I’m finishing my 3rd semester as a teaching intern.

It’s been rough

Brain-based Learning is a blast.

Phonics and syllabication  is tough!

As always, I’ll make it happen – for my students.

Therefore, I need to get back to workūü¶Ā.

A2Z2016 – Juggling aka Multitasking

A to Z Challenge (2016), Goal Setting, Mind, Motivation, Time
According to Dictionary.com, JUGGLING is defined as: to keep (several objects, as balls, plates, tenpins, or knives) in continuous motion in the air simultaneously by tossing and catching.

Have you ever tried juggling?   If so, how many objects can you keep in the air at one time? 

I see juggling as synonymous with multitasking.  I use to brag about being good at multitasking –  that I was excellent with handling many tasks and projects at the same time. 

My current experience as a Teaching Intern totally disproves that theory!  I tried (rather unsuccessfully) for the last three semesters to juggle an accelerated load of four classes at one time.  Initially, I felt like I had no choice in the  matter because – ‘it is what it is’.  This semester, I had to sit down and figure it out.  I quickly fell far behind due to my mother having spinal surgery at the beginning of the semester. 

When you are faced with adversity you either figure it out or drop everything you are juggling.  Because I stay in BEAST MODE, failure is NOT an option!!!  So, I figured it out.  Focus on one class at a time for a specific time period, then shift to the next one and do that in a rotation.  I shifted from juggling many tasks to managing projects – easier to manage along with my nerves.  It is a mindset!

I believe that while you may appear effective multitasking, you may not be efficient; therefore, risking a loss of quality.  I like my 4.00 GPA, so I had to be both effective and efficient as an intern.  

So I ask you how many objects can you keep in the air at one time?  Personally, I am content with tossing one up at a time.  That way, I maintain proper focus by keeping my eyes on it.

I Remember When…The Journey of Lost Memories

Motivation, Spirit, Time

My son turned 18 this year. Of course I have been experiencing a lot of memories of his childhood the closer he gets to adulthood. I remember when he was a baby…well, the memory was sparked by standing in his bedroom door and admiring how neat and clean he is. His bed is always made up and there are no clothes on the floor or messy items laying around. ¬†He has the basics: TV, gaming console, bed, chair and lamp. His room is very nice and comfortable.

The memory I have is of my boy sitting in his high chair always cleaning the tray in front of him with a dish cloth. He would also dust the rails on his crib. If I handed him a clean dry cloth he would sit there and wipe all along the rails – back and forth for a very long time. I joked back then about how “clean” he would be one day. It’s true!

Thanks Danny – this is a great idea!

Dream Big, Dream Often

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I want to try something new and requires your interaction or it dies. ¬†It is a ‚ÄúI remember when‚Ķ‚ÄĚ segment.

It goes like this…

Recently my mom bought me a tub of mixed nuts.  And in that tub were pecans which are not my favorite, but I ate a few of them and the taste caused a lost memory to come flooding back into my mind.  I remember as a small boy cracking pecans so perfectly so as to extract the entire pecan out without it breaking apart.  I also did the same with walnuts.  I would have to be so delicate with the nutcracker and then surgically remove the entire nut.  For some reason I experienced great joy from accomplishing this task.  I might have been 9 or 10 years old.  I had not eaten pecans in so long and it was amazing that that memory…

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“I’m Alright! I made it!” Day 10 and beyond…

Body, Mind, Motivation, Spirit, Time

Finally I am able to post again!

I am happy to share that I not only survived the 10-Day Green Smoothie Detox, but I am still drinking the smoothies as a meal a day.¬† I have made only GOOD food choices since I started.¬† On New Year’s day, I went out to dinner with friends, but chose broiled seafood instead of fried and ate no bad carbs!

That was day 10 so It would be considered modified for one day (which was allowed according to the plan).  So far, I have not eaten from the BAD FOOD list at all.

In the last few days, I had to shift gears and prepare to come back into the classroom and teach.  That is where I lost my blogging momentum!  I have had to re-establish a working routine.  I really enjoy blogging and desire to be consistent with both writing and reading blogs because I love the community aspect of it.  hummus

Since I began the detox, I find that I want an uncluttered life as well.  I am cleaning house from the inside out!   Everything feels better: my body, mind, and spirit are all in tune.  It feels wonderful.



“No artificial anything…”

Body, Goal Setting, Motivation, Nutrition, Time

Keeping it 100!

I began my morning anticipating my Curriculum Development Final Exams which had to be taken at the college.  I really did not have the time to study my journal entries like I wanted to.  There was no time.  I worked on the final project until the very last minute last night and there was nothing left within me for studying.  Oh well, I managed to do a cursory review this morning before heading off to the college.

Final Exam time!

         Final Exam time!

While I earned a bachelor & master’s degree long ago, I needed to return to school for pedagogical training (to learn to teach). ¬†You see, I changed my career completely and decided to become a Secondary English Teacher. ¬†I adore my 7th and 8th grade children who are not wanting to be seen as children. ¬†They mean so much to me. ¬†Not sure how I will handle my first year of promotions. ¬†My 8th grade class is like my own children. ¬†I love them dearly and wish I could be the “mom” of all of them. ¬†Not possible…I digress.

The exam was 20 multiple choice questions and 5 essays. ¬†The multiple choice wasn’t bad, but the essays seemed to be more challenging until I really focused in. ¬†I realized that I could do it and totally relaxed. ¬†By the time I arrived back at home, my scores were posted.

I did well!

I did well!

So, I exhaled a bit.  One class down and several more to go.  It will be fine.

Meanwhile, I am still getting in my vitamins and drinking the recommended eight glasses a water per day (4 Р16 ounce bottles).  I number the four bottles (1-2-3-4) on the caps to help me keep track of what I drink throughout the day.  This is a good way to pace the water drinking I have decided to challenge myself and do it for 21 days without fail.  Also 21 days of taking my vitamin supplements without forgetting is the other challenge.

The whole point is to “eat clean” and heal my body from the inside outward. ¬†I do not plan to consume anything that is artificial. ¬†No preservatives, additives, or anything artificial. ¬†No artificial anything! ¬†That’s right!

Courage of a Lyons

Career, Finances, Goal Setting, Motivation, Time


‚ÄúIf I had the courage to see myself as I really am, I would find out what is wrong with me, and correct it, then I might have a chance to profit by my mistakes and learn something from the experience of others, for I know that there¬† is something WRONG with me, or I would now be where I WOULD HAVE BEEN IF I had spent more time analyzing my weaknesses, and less time building alibis to cover them.‚ÄĚ

 ~excerpt from Napoleon Hill’s, Think and Grow Rich

 My decision to become an Independent Business Owner with ACN, was the beginning of  discovering my OTHER-SELF.

It was the point I realized that although I have always been one to self-reflect and ultimately self-correct, I was still leaning on excuses and alibis for my apparent lack of complete success.

The business of network marketing is perhaps one of the most challenging industries I will ever face;  yet the most rewarding long-term.  Like many others, I started out with a great deal of excitement about this new business venture that could ultimately make me a millionaire.  The money is not what enticed me.  It was the notion of realizing SUCCESS once and for all.  It was about personal growth, development, and HELPING OTHERS.   However, I quickly realized that having more money is a sure way to be in a position to help others.  It made perfect sense to me!

Although this was not my first exposore to direct selling or network marketing (many refer to it as a pyramid with a negative connotation), yet ACN was the first business model that completely made sense to me.  It is the first that has demonstrated 100% the notion of truly helping others achieve ultimate time freedom and financial security.  Now, I know that I am not Oprah, so my word may not be so golden that people flock towards the opportunity just because I say so.

“I don’t have to sell products, or store inventory?¬† It’s service based and helping others to save money on services they are already using?”¬† I was absolutely able to see the benefit.¬† Oh!¬† Also, monthly residual income!¬† It all made so much sense.¬† I did not need to be convinced.¬† I did however need to believe I could do it.

Why are people so afraid and apprehensive to do this thing?  What do they fear?  As I set out to introduce this business to others, I realized that many put a wall up and are not open to what it takes to be successful in it.  First off, it requires changing your thinking and seeing things from the perpective of having arrived at the destination of SUCCESS.  It requires HARD WORK, PERSEVERENCE, POSITIVITY, AND A STRONG BELIEF IN SELF!

success map

So, I thought I was more than prepared for this business and it would be fairly easy for me to just talk to people and help them.¬† Nope!¬† People don’t want my help!¬† Is that true?¬† Or, my excuse?¬† This is the point when I began to read, Think and Grow Rich, by Napoleon Hill.¬† If you have not read it – please do!¬† It will seriously get you to realize how you see yourself.¬† It also unveils THE REAL YOU.¬† It teaches you about innate power you possess, yet may never tap into because of FEAR.

I have always loved the image below, because I saw myself as a LION.  The truth is РI have not been acting like one.  This was a major distortion on my part.  I was going through the motions, but not really not quite following through to the ROAR.


I love the network marketing business and ACN; because of the character and ethics of the people that make up the organization.  I have grown tremendously in the last eight months in this business and look forward to the years to come!

All I need to do now is attract other courageous people who want to help others grow and achieve time freedom and financial security.  With this, everybody wins!

Simple Behaviors

Body, Goal Setting, Motivation, Nutrition, Spirit, Time

On June 7th, I posted “The Process of Transforming”. At that time, it was my intention to begin 21 days to build some lasting improving habits. I was going to focus on health and time management. I have learned that in order to really truly make a change you have to focus on changing simple behaviors on a consistent basis. So when I thought about how to improve upon those two areas, I realized that I had not really determined what those simple behaviors would be.

Health – I decided to eliminate all sugar from my diet. Dr. Oz says it is the best thing to do if you have a metabolic disorder like I do. Sugar leads to cravings and all sorts of issues for me. The next person could be perfectly fine consuming sugar; so this is really about me.

Time management – I thought about peak times for me to do certain things to maximize both my efficiency and effectiveness.

As a result, for the last few days since the 7th, I have been hyper-focused on what goes in my mouth as nutrition and when and why I do certain things. Now, I found numerous simple behaviors when it comes to time management, so I was still trying to get that one right. I managed to make it one whole day going sugar-free, then I accidentally had some Chipotle salad dressing. I am sure it contained sugar. I could taste it. That caused a mini-meltdown.

As for time, I burned a good pan of food because I was leveraging my time and trying to be more efficient by multi-tasking. This caused another mini-meltdown.

So, I thought about how nuts I would be for the remainder of the 21 days if I kept on this vein.

This morning, I awoke with the perspective of I need to relax and listen to my inner spirit/intuition and make the best choices in what I eat and when I need to do what I do. It felt liberating to put it in these terms for myself. I will ease up on the gas peddle a little while travelling on this journey of CREATING AN AMAZING LIFE. Besides, menopause is kicking in and that’s a whole different post.


Process of Transforming

Body, Career, Exercise, Fashion, Finances, Goal Setting, Introduction, Motivation, Nutrition, Spirit, Time


My overwhelming desire to transform my life is stronger than ever now.

As I think about why I desire to change my life, I realize that it is¬†my innate desire to improve or be better.¬† I believe¬†the process of transforming is really synonomous with¬†living your life. I believe that some people do this passively, while others go through life anticipating every moment with zeal. I am the latter. I could never just sit and coast through life. I need a project or something to always be in existence for me to feel alive. I have been this way since I was a small child. When I reflect upon the patterns in my life, I know I have always been¬†a ¬†‘busy with activity’ person. I actually feed off of having something going on in my life at all times.

I realize that just being busy and having a lot of “stuff” going on in my life is no longer enough.¬† Now, I need RESULTS to place on my mantle.¬† I need accomplishment.¬† This ties back to my previous posts about finishing what I start.

Here is what I am considering about me in my effort to be more results oriented (random thoughts in no specific order of priority):

  • It takes 21 days to create a habit.
  • I hate paper, because it creates unnecessary clutter.
  • I am best early in the morning as opposed to the evening after a long workday.
  • I hate time clocks, schedules, and structure period.
  • I love food!
  • I talk alot on the phone (not always a productive activity).
  • My husband and I are complete personality opposites (which is cool).
  • My son is a momma’s boy for sure (which is also cool).
  • I don’t like the notion of credit, because paying it back later is inconvenient.
  • I am obsessed with buying purses and books (hard/soft back or ebooks – doesn’t matter).
  • I love people watching.¬† I enjoy trying to figure out who they are and what their life is like¬†from a distance.
  • I¬†appreciate¬†funky eclectic styles as opposed to matching and modern.
  • I love to get to know people for who they truly are and not the surface stuff they want you to see.
  • I am communal most times, but like my private quiet time too.
  • My faith in God is strong.
  • I believe messages come from God on billboards, words of friends, radio stations and every form of communication that the mind can perceive.
  • Communication in general¬†is super important to me.¬† I often share my thoughts to get reactions from others.
  • Exercise is a chore for me.
  • Through my thoughts, I often challenge myself to be and do better.
  • I can be judging, overbearing, and animated at times – something I have often self-corrected over the years – so much better now!!!.
  • The thoughts keep coming….

Well, this is a good enough list to get started with.  I want to start my tackling the first bullet point.  For the next 21 days, starting today, I will work to create some positive habits that address some of the other bullet points.  For instance, I am working on my health, and time management.  For the next 21 days, I will be tracking my actions and interactions that relate to my health and how I balance my time.

This is all in my plan to CREATE AN AMAZING LIFE!

Finishing my Journey

Goal Setting, Motivation, Time


The first time I saw Maslow’s Hierarchy of Need, I was in junior high school. I was very interested in the peak of the pyramid – Self Actualization.¬† Before I had a clue as to what it meant, I knew I wanted to reach this level.

As an adult, I totally understand each level of this hierarchy.¬†¬†In fact, I feel as though I have been all over this thing.¬† It all depends on the season I am experiencing in my life.¬† While mine and most people’s physiological needs – food, water, and sleep are met, there are a lot of missed opportunities in the other areas.¬† Often we rise and fall within these areas.¬† There are times when I did not necessarily feel safe, or my self-esteem was in extremely low and fragile.¬†¬†Ultimately for me, the goal¬†has been¬†to reach that pinnacle of self-actualization.¬†For me, the journey is best defined by the title of my blog:¬† Pain, Passion, and Purpose.

“What a man can be, he must be. This need we may call self-actualization‚ĶIt refers to the desire for self-fulfillment, namely, to the tendency for him to become actualized in what he is potentially. This tendency might be phrased as the desire to become more and more what one is, to become everything that one is capable of becoming.”

So, this is what drives me – to do and become my personal best.¬†Not only am I interested in this for myself, but I am driven to coach and develop others in this area.¬†¬†It is how I think and function consistently.¬† Sometimes, I am overwhelmed by this desire because I am a ‘big picture’ visionary¬†person.¬† I see myself helping others on a grand scale and making a significant overall contribution.

So, what does all of this mean and why is it important for me to share this?

¬†It’s been a week since I last blogged.¬† I was caught in a cycle of analyzing myself¬† to determine¬†my next steps in life.¬† I am 48 years old, and have basically had the same dreams since childhood.¬†¬†My inner¬†spirit will not let me rest.¬† I must walk out my purpose or else!¬† It is becoming more and more intense.¬†

My husband recently asked me, “Are you living out your passion within God’s will for your life’s direction?”

I had to ponder that one for a moment.¬† I interpreted that question to mean, “…am I walking in the purpose God created me for?”¬† I believe that I have been on this journey for a lifetime and yet to arrive at that place.¬† When I gave it more in-depth thought and even prayed about it, my answer came quickly.¬† I haven’t arrived because I keep stopping along the way.¬† As I think back over my life, I have attempted many times to really do the work that I love and that fulfills me.¬† I always end up stopping and getting a J-O-B that pays the bills.¬† I call this “survival mode”.¬† This never fully¬†satisfies me.

Over the course of this last week since I last blogged, I have been told by three different people, and read¬†in my previous journals a few more times, that, “…finishing things has not been a strength of mine”.¬† I tend to start out with a lot of energy and then something happens and I lose interest and just stop.¬† This is one of the reasons I wanted to blog.¬†¬† I believed that it would connect me with enough people who would eventually be there to encourage me too.¬† Yes, I could just stop blogging and not return, but that will not happen.¬† I will not let my readers and fellow bloggers down; and more importantly, I can not let myself down any longer.


I am not getting off that track this time.¬† If you are following my posts, feel free to comment and hold me accountable!¬† Oh yeah, I did take a break from the gym for a few days too.¬† Tomorrow morning, I have a 7:30 am appointment with the personal trainer.¬†¬†¬† I am still working on my health and transforming my body.¬† Now that I am super aware of my tendency to just ‘STOP’, I will not do it.¬† I am appreciative of my husband and my good friends for keeping it real with me.¬† I really see how this is the beginning of something great.¬†

Stay tuned Рfollow me!  I love and need your support (there I am in the middle of the pyramid).